Monday, March 3, 2014

LL's 5th Birthday Letter from Mommy


My sweet girl!  I know that I say this every year, but I seriously can not believe that you are 5 years old.  You are such a joy, and I can't tell you enough how much I love you.  You are my whole world, and I love being your Mommy!  

You have grown so much in personality in the last year.  One of the things that I love so much about you is that you are constantly wanting to play pretend.  You have such a huge, funny imagination!  Probably 5 days out of the week, you are a cheetah instead of a little girl.  And not just a regular cheetah, an "itty bitty cheetah this big".  You spend your time running around the house on all fours and growling at all of us.  Luckily, Cooper has learned to growl right back and he enjoys playing with you in that game.  You're not always a cheetah, though.  You also really like for all of us to play "Frozen" with you.  You are Elsa, I'm Ana, Daddy is Christoph, Cooper is "baby Olaf", and Bono is Sven.  Poor Lola just gets left out.  But I so very love seeing you use your imagination, and your creativity is endless!

Another thing that I love a lot is watching you as a big sister.  You have your moments where you are annoyed by Cooper, but overall you do fantastic with him.  Especially now that he's getting a little older.  I love watching the sweet moments between the two of you - especially when they are unprompted by us.  The moments where you guys play or snuggle without even knowing that anyone is watching you.  Cooper absolutely adores you, and I can see it just in the way that he looks at you.  When you were his age, you didn't really play with other kids yet.  You were still very much in parallel play.  Cooper already loves playing with you, and you can be so very sweet to him.  I love the moments where you crawl up on the couch with a book and "read" to him.  Or where you get a toy for him to play with.  Or when you play peek-a-boo with him.  You are a fantastic big sister.

You have really started to show a love for God this year.  I love seeing these little seed being planted in your life - I can't wait to watch them grow and turn into a relationship with Christ.  You carry your bibles around with you almost constantly.  You "read" them over and over.  You have really started to have a deeper understanding of who God is and what Christ did for us.  I love hearing you talk about Jesus and to ask questions.  I absolutely love that you go to a school where they foster that relationship and that knowledge.  I pray that these two years a Park Avenue will help you carry a light with you to kindergarten next year.  

Lorelai, you are such a funny girl.  You keep us laughing all the time.  You love to tell jokes and make other people laugh.  You take after your Daddy so much in this way.  You are silly more than you are serious, and I love that.  You keep my heart light, and my spirit joyful.  Even without saying the words, you constantly tell me not to take things so seriously and to lighten up.  I pray that you always have these qualities.  This is part of what make people want to be around you so much - you have such a happy, joyful spirit.

For about the first half of this year, you were a total Daddy's girl.  You guys bonded so much, and you always wanted to be with him. You guys have such a similar personality that you just have so much fun when you spend time together.  You guys have a blast being silly together in a way that I don't know how to be.  For the second half of this year, you have been a Mommy's girl.  You have wanted to be with me almost constantly, and I love that.  We have had so much fun spending time together, and I love being able to talk to you and find out what's in your brain.  I love love love how you think and hearing what's going on in your head.  While you and I won't be "friends" for a long time, I pray that we will always be close and that you will always feel like you can talk to me.  Sweet girl, I love you so much and I never want you to feel like there's something that we can't talk about.  I will always listen to you, and I will always respect how you feel about things (even if I don't agree).  

Having Cooper has changed my relationship with you in so many ways.  While Cooper opened up a whole new level in my heart (I didn't think I could love anyone as much as I love you), you will always a very special and very different place in my heart.  You are my first.  You are who taught me the true meaning of unconditional love.  You are the one who opened up a whole new world to me.  You are the one that made me a Mommy.  Before you, I had no idea what my heart was capable of.  Before you, I didn't know that my heart could live and walk around outside of my body.  Before you, I never really knew what it would feel like to be willing to truly die for someone else.  Before you, I had no idea how easy it would be for me to put someone else's needs before my own without even batting an eye.  You are so special to me.

Lorelai, more than anything else, I want you to know these things: First - you are loved.  You have so many people on this earth who love you more than you will ever know.  And that list starts with me.  I am you biggest fan.  I will always be your cheerleader.  I will always be here for you.  I promise you.  But the person who loves you the most is Christ.  I will fail you as a mother, no matter how hard I try not to.  But Jesus will never fail you.  Second - you are special.  You are an amazing little girl with a beautiful light inside of you.  Don't ever let anyone else tell you differently or try to take that away from you. The world will try.  It will be a lifelong battle.  But don't ever let anyone make you believe any differently. 

There's something else that I want you to know about yourself.  You are so stunningly beautiful.  I know I'm you mom.  I know it's my job to think this.  But it is so so true.  And you are beautiful not just because of your physical beauty.  You are beautiful because of the personality that shines inside of you.  Don't ever let a boy, or mean girls, or society, or Hollywood make you think any differently.  You are perfectly and wonderfully made - no part of you is a mistake.  Please always know in your heart that you are such a beautiful person.

I love you, my sweet girl.  I have had an amazing 5 years being your mommy.  And I can't wait to see what this next year holds for you.  I can't wait to see how much you are going to grow and change and blossom this next year.  I love you with all of my heart.




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