I posted last Tuesday that I hadn't blogged in almost a week because my computer wouldn't turn on! Luckily, we have a handy-dandy friend who offered to try and fix it for us. He was able to fix it, but we had to wait almost another week for a part for it to come in. Long story short - two weeks later - we have our computer back!
So here are some updates on what's been going on, including a pregnancy update.
1 - Summer is here! I am almost at the end of my second week of summer. LL and I have been enjoying it SOOOO much! I absolutely love being home with her and wouldn't trade it for the world. It makes the school year SO worth it to be able to be home with her for 4 months of the year.
2- LL started swim this week. She hates it. But I'm so excited for how well I know she'll be able to swim in 4 weeks! She's doing survival swimming, which I'll do a more detailed post about later.
3 - I'm going to Savannah this weekend just me and my sister for a little vacation - just us girls. I'm MEGA excited about it and can't wait to go.
4 - Last but not least, a pregnancy update. This one is going to be kind of long. We've been asking for lots of prayers on facebook, but have left out any details. The major reason for that is that we don't have any details ourselves. Here's what happened.
Two weeks ago we had our first ultrasound. They dated me at 5 weeks and told me to come back in 2 weeks for another one. My OB office won't "officially" give you a due date until the baby has a heartbeat.
So we went back Tuesday (when I should have been 7 weeks) for all of that fun stuff. Well, in this ultrasound, it only showed me at 6 weeks. We did get to see a heart beat, but it was a little on the slow side (only in the 80's) and they typically look for one between 110 - 140. Marie (my midwife) said that it wasn't completely unusual to see a heartbeat a little low at the very beginning of 6 weeks. She scheduled me an appoinment for another ultrasound in 2 weeks.
On Wednesday I got a phone call from the office saying that Marie had changed her mind and wanted me to come back the next day for an ultrasound.
Today, I did just that. We had another ultrasound and the baby looked the same - there and with a heartbeat in the 80's. We sat down with Marie and had a long talk. Basically, after I left the other day she went over my ultrasound with one of the doctor's and he suggested bringing me in sooner than two weeks and checking again. Since the ultrasound didn't tell us anything new, there was really no new "news" to talk about. She did give me a progesterone shot. Progesterone is the hormone that your body makes that makes you keep the baby.
Here's our new plan of action: I got the shot. I'll go back next Wednesday for another ultrasound. If the heartbeat is higher and the baby is bigger - great news. We're doing good. If the heartbeat is the same and/or the baby hasn't grown much - things aren't looking too good. I guess, in a nutshell, they're mildly concerned. But they don't have anything really concrete to actually worry about. The chance of miscarriage is there. But it is with every woman. The miscarriage rate is currently 25%. That's 1 in every 4 women. That's pretty high! But it also means that there's an even greater chance (75%) that our baby will be fine!
We've had a lot of time to think about this and really talk about it. Here's our prayer and what we ask you to pray with us:
1- If God wants us to keep this baby, that we will go back next week and not only will the baby look good, but that it will be thriving.
2 - If God doesn't want this baby to stay with us, that he will make it pretty clear and will go ahead and take this baby to be with him.
Don't get me wrong - Matt and I would NEVER do anything to terminate this pregnancy OR get rid of it on our own. That's God's job - not ours. But if God wants to go ahead and take this baby, we would rather that he do it in the very early stages than later in my pregnancy. I don't want to miscarry. I want this child desperately. But I trust God. Matt and I had a talk about a MercyMe song the other day, and it is truly my prayer right now:
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory.
'Cause I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
I'm praising God that, right now, as I type this, there is a baby in my tummy. That baby is alive. That baby has a heartbeat. Right now. But I also trust God. I want to come out of this situation - whether it's in 9 months and holding my baby, or meeting my baby in Heaven one day- with God looking down on me and saying "Well done. You trusted me through everything. You have made me happy."
God is good. God is faithful. When LL was 9 months old, we got up in the front of our church and dedicated her to God. I'm choosing to do this again, only way earlier than 9 months. I'm giving this child over to God, and trusting Him in His plan for us, and for this baby.
So please, join with us in praying for this precious little miracle that is our unborn baby. I promise to keep you updated as soon as I know something.